Bismillah.
Dan hari ini adalah hari terakhir dalam bulan oktober.
Mungkin sebab penghujung oktober dah so semua benda dah berubah.
Mungkin semua manusia jadi manis sebab oktober was my birthday month,
so bila dah nak penghujung ni semua berubah jadi seperti sedia kala.
Atau sebab manusia memang cepat bosan?
Kenapalah Tuhan tak bagi perasaan mudah bosan tu kepada aku?
So aku tak perlu nak rasa macam ni
Tak perlu nak rasa bersungguh sungguh untuk semua perkara
Penat
Entahlah.
Kalau lah Tuhan tu bagi perasaan putus asa dan bosan tu pada seorang yang bernama Syafika
mesti aku tak rasa sucks macam ni sekarang
so aku pun boleh jadi heartless mcm orang lain
Yang layan aku baik hanya sebab Oktober was my birthday month.
Jangan tanya kenapa but yeah,
Syafika lama dah mati.
Bye,
Syafika L.
Friday, 30 October 2015
Tuesday, 20 October 2015
Syafika dua enam
Bismillah.
Now where do i start?
I turned 26 on 19th of October 2015, which is yesterday.
Like usual, i dont really like october and my birthday but this year, everything seems so different.
I like october, oh wait, let me rephrase the word,
I LOVE OCTOBER!
Everything seems so perfect for october this year. Yes, still have my ups and downs, but for someone who doesn't really love to celebrate her birthday, i kindda cherish my birthday this year.
Well, on 16th of october, mama dengan kakak datang dari johor untuk buat surprise sebab kan Johor cuti on friday and saturday, and my birthday is on Monday, so diorang buat advance celebration lah kononnya.
It was so nice, semua keluar pakai pyjamas, nyanyi lagu happy birthday and i was so surprised, and terlompat lompat macam orang gila dan peluk mama. Sebab every year pun diorang bagi perfume, so i've told them not perfume this year. Demand kan? But, yeah. kesian diorang beli lepastu i didnt use it because i dont like the smell, so membazir. But still, mestilah simpan, sayang :)
Mama bagi red wedges -_-" dengan note " semoga menjadi lebih wanita selepas ni " , K. Kakak and jiha bagi macam a potrait canvas eh apa ntah nama dia, so boleh lah gantung dalam bilik. Wawa bagi pandora with one cute pendant which suits me, yealah, i didnt wear silver stuff, so mcm dia pandai sebab dia belikan leather strap, so i surely wear punya lah. No picture of the suspects sebab semua pakai baju tidur, sekian. hahaha
My delishyums birthday cake.
So the night before my birthday, which is October 18th, F asked me to go dinner with him. We plan, i mean bukan we lah, he wanted to go to Seoul Garden sebab 50% off for the birthday girl ( coz we're cheapskate like that haha! ) So, okaylah. Layan je lah.
Tapi apa yang menariknya adalah, kitorang dah plan nak makan since 9 years ago. yes, NINE, SEMBILAN TAHUN LEPAS. And this year, just before my birthday, kitorang baru pergi makan sama-sama. now, baru boleh cakap, how fast time flies! OMG!
My handsome cutie patootie b....eef wrap. HAHAHA :P
So sweet, siap buatkan beef wrap lah apa lah. Cair sekejap. So, kitorang makan cepat sebab nak kejar movie which is awesome sebenarnya movie tu tapi sebab seat dia tak comfortable, so dia macam spoil sikit ( ya Tuhan, mohon bersyukurlah sebuah Syafika ni -_-") And i think, F tertidur banyak kali jugak lah maybe because he's too tired sebab ada event dari pagi sampai petang. See, so sweet i cair some more. Cannot lah like this.
And then, we went to Tasik Cyberjaya just to chill and talk sambil ditemani udara jerebu yang krik krik k thanks. hahaha
I was sooooo overdressed that night while he just pakai a simple black t and short pastu selipar sekian terima kasih syafika nak pergi terjun bangunan sekarang. K. Benda tu adalah paling kelakar dan memalukan sekali dan Syafika akan ingat mungkin sampai habis hayat dia ya pasal malam tu. K let's not even talk about it anymore.
It was one of the sweetest birthday night ever, and i kindda like my birthday this year because of it.
So, bila balik tu ingat dah habis lah tekanan jantung pada diri seorang syafika. Rupanya Fara datang dan bawa kek, siap belon dengan lilin ada lagu. Dah lah keluar dari dapur, nasib baik tak kena hempuk dengan kuali. hahaha But it was the sweetest. Oh have i ever tell you that i have the bestest godangg friend in the whole world? Yes, i am.
That over-the-top-shine-bright-like-a-diamond red bag was given by milaf dan belon tu lah yang berdiri cantik je kat meja makan waktu cheq sampai rumah kenkonon surprise lah dari cikpah hahaha
It was indeed a lovely day until one guy call me and cakap dia dari Gdex nak hantar barang. F ada beli barang which dia kata kemeja warna hijau yang dia beli online sebab nak pakai waktu concert Yuna tapi sebab "tersalah tengok information" katanya, baju tu sampai today lah. F selalu kat office so yeah i thought why not send it to my house since i'm always at home kan.
Rupanya....
He send me a bouquet of flowers :)
Tak payah lah cerita apa jadi but i was over the moon at that time okay. Siap whatsapp emosi " kenapa you buat i macam ni? " padahal dapat bunga kot. Syafika seorang emosi berpisah tiada. hahaha
I was so shocked, but happy kindda shocked sampai tak tahu nak react macam mana, i ended up crying. Sebab terharu okay, umur doplohnam baru dapat bunga. Urgh! So emosi. haha
And that was the highlight of my day.
The best thing that ever happened on 19th Oct 2015.
Full stop.
___________________________________________________________________________
Dearest F,
You're one of the best thing that God have given me this year.
You gave me the most meaningful birthday present this year, which is your time,
and your effort to make me happy, makes it even better.
I love how you gave me your long sweet birthday wishes,
and the way you sang that kpop birthday song, man, no one can challenge that. HAHA
Not to forget, that bouquet of flowers and the note , it's beautiful.
I love every bits of it.
Thank you for making me love October this year.
Sayang you, milaff.
___________________________________________________________________________
" To find someone who will love you for no reason, and to shower that person with reasons, that is the ultimate happiness " - Robert Brault .
Alhamdulillah.
Lucky girl right here,
Syafika L.
Saturday, 17 October 2015
18/31
Bismillah.
Seorang syafika yang berumur 25tahun 11bulan dan 29 hari adalah
seorang manusia yang tak konsisten
I never thought that final year can be very tiring, dah almost lost count berapa banyak kali
balik kelas emosi nangis atas katil sebab study.
Susahnya.
But, selalunya aku nak sangat cepat habis belajar but with this kindda economy here
in Malaysia nak habis belajar cepat cepat pun, lepastu nak buat apa?
Yes, i have some sort of plans. Plan A, Plan B, Plan C.
Dan kalau semua plan tak jadi, i'm gonna withdraw all my savings and travel the world,
malas nak fikir lah.
I was having a conversation with mak the other day,
Me : Do u plan ur future waktu kecik dulu, ma?
Ma : Yes, dari kecil mama memang nak jadi cikgu, nak masuk maktab was my aim at that time.
Me : And everything turned out to be the way you want it?
Ma : yes, minus the divorce.
Me : what if i dont have any plans? What if apa ika rancang tak jadi mcm mana ika nak? What if ika tak boleh bangga kan mama, tak jadi macam apa yang mama dengan ayah nak? What if ika tak boleh jadi a good example untuk adik adik? Ika grad umur ika almost 27, siapa je nak hire ika kerja? i dont have any experience in working industry, i dont have anything to offer, graduating from ipts with average cgpa je, macam mana ika nak hidup?
Ma : You think too much sometimes. Semua orang ada rezeki masing-masing, bezanya macam mana kita usaha. Mama dah happy tengok ika berubah banyak, even ika takut everything tak turn out to be the way you want it to be, just terus plan juga. By doing that, you will know what to do sooner or later. Jangan risau, ika kan suka figure out stuff, you'll figure out your life just like you always do. Worry less, do more. Doa banyak banyak moga Tuhan mudahkan.
Maybe i'm scared sebab dah nak 26 tahun but my life doesnt seems to fall to its places just yet. But yeah, life goes on. The clock is ticking. I just need to figure how to manage my mind and my life.
Messy world ahead.
Seorang syafika yang emosi,
Syafika L.
Seorang syafika yang berumur 25tahun 11bulan dan 29 hari adalah
seorang manusia yang tak konsisten
I never thought that final year can be very tiring, dah almost lost count berapa banyak kali
balik kelas emosi nangis atas katil sebab study.
Susahnya.
But, selalunya aku nak sangat cepat habis belajar but with this kindda economy here
in Malaysia nak habis belajar cepat cepat pun, lepastu nak buat apa?
Yes, i have some sort of plans. Plan A, Plan B, Plan C.
Dan kalau semua plan tak jadi, i'm gonna withdraw all my savings and travel the world,
malas nak fikir lah.
I was having a conversation with mak the other day,
Me : Do u plan ur future waktu kecik dulu, ma?
Ma : Yes, dari kecil mama memang nak jadi cikgu, nak masuk maktab was my aim at that time.
Me : And everything turned out to be the way you want it?
Ma : yes, minus the divorce.
Me : what if i dont have any plans? What if apa ika rancang tak jadi mcm mana ika nak? What if ika tak boleh bangga kan mama, tak jadi macam apa yang mama dengan ayah nak? What if ika tak boleh jadi a good example untuk adik adik? Ika grad umur ika almost 27, siapa je nak hire ika kerja? i dont have any experience in working industry, i dont have anything to offer, graduating from ipts with average cgpa je, macam mana ika nak hidup?
Ma : You think too much sometimes. Semua orang ada rezeki masing-masing, bezanya macam mana kita usaha. Mama dah happy tengok ika berubah banyak, even ika takut everything tak turn out to be the way you want it to be, just terus plan juga. By doing that, you will know what to do sooner or later. Jangan risau, ika kan suka figure out stuff, you'll figure out your life just like you always do. Worry less, do more. Doa banyak banyak moga Tuhan mudahkan.
Maybe i'm scared sebab dah nak 26 tahun but my life doesnt seems to fall to its places just yet. But yeah, life goes on. The clock is ticking. I just need to figure how to manage my mind and my life.
Messy world ahead.
Seorang syafika yang emosi,
Syafika L.
Thursday, 8 October 2015
8/31
Bismillah
Takde masa sangat nak menulis sebab banyak sangat benda nak kena buat
kena baca kena tulis kena drive kena jalan kaki
and the list goes on and on
So kali ni, nak cerita pasal reality, which sometimes can be so much pain in the ass bebeh.
At the age of 26 (well, in a few weeks time) , my skin decided to breaks and
tumbuh segala mak nenek jerawat yang tak boleh dihuraikan dengan kata-kata
Untuk orang yang tak pernah atau tak selalu lah ada skin problem,
benda itu sangat menjengkelkan ye kawan-kawan
Anyhow, i was so stress. Pergi dekat tempat yang selalu facial pun akak tu cakap
" kenapa teruk sangat muka awak ni?"
Balik kampung, mak tegur " apa jadi dengan muka awak?"
Lepastu, rasa nak kurung diri dalam bilik to the point yang nak hold semester ah
sebab malu nak jumpa kawan-kawan.
Pastu rasa tak nak dating dengan pakwe sebab malu lah woi.
Tapi dating jugek walaupun jerawat bermaharajalela, so #overlyattachsyafika blergh.
Ada kata, sebab aku balik dari spain, so cuaca punya transition,
ada kata sebab hormon. Well, horms, why now? Why u do this to me now? why?
Entahlah.
So, for someone yang tak de skin problem sangat, make up was a big no no for me.
Tapi aku tak de masalah pun dengan orang yang pakai make up
Sendiri punya hal lah. Macam orang yang cucuk vitamin C untuk putih, atau bla bla.
Aku tak buat tapi aku takdelah sampai nak ejek orang yang buat
Tu masalah kau, yang rosak nanti badan sendiri.
Straight to the point, lepas muka berjerawat dan scar yang sangat teruk ni
I decided to put some make up on sebab self-esteem jatuh terjelepuk ah bila
orang cakap dengan kau tapi dia dok perati jerawat kat dahi kau
Aku pun try ah cover the shitz dengan bedak and what not just dekat problematic area je
Untuk menyembunyikan ia. But hey, it helps.
Although tak ah hilang, tapi dia dapatlah memalsukan muka buat sementara waktu
dan meningkatkan sikit self-esteem diri
dan mengelakkan kau orang memandang jerawat aku waktu aku bercakap dengan korang
sehingga perasaan di hati macam nak smack down je dahi korang tu
tapi yeah, it helps.
Bukan lah aku kata " sila lah make up kan diri anda dengan tebal untuk naik kan self-esteem"
No.
Semua orang cantik dengan sendirinya, even with or without make up
But hey, a lil make up just to boost ur confidence level wont hurt, no?
Sama macam kau yang dah pakai deodorant, tapi still nak sembur perfume sebotol kan?
Kau nak extra kick supaya confidence level kau naik. Centu ah.
Kesimpulan yang seorang syafika nak buat dari cakap panjang panjang ini adalah,
Buat lah apa pun asalkan korang happy.
Be it with or without make up, asalkan korang jadi diri sendiri tu yang penting, okay?
Jerawat-puff girl,
Syafika L.
Takde masa sangat nak menulis sebab banyak sangat benda nak kena buat
kena baca kena tulis kena drive kena jalan kaki
and the list goes on and on
So kali ni, nak cerita pasal reality, which sometimes can be so much pain in the ass bebeh.
At the age of 26 (well, in a few weeks time) , my skin decided to breaks and
tumbuh segala mak nenek jerawat yang tak boleh dihuraikan dengan kata-kata
Untuk orang yang tak pernah atau tak selalu lah ada skin problem,
benda itu sangat menjengkelkan ye kawan-kawan
Anyhow, i was so stress. Pergi dekat tempat yang selalu facial pun akak tu cakap
" kenapa teruk sangat muka awak ni?"
Balik kampung, mak tegur " apa jadi dengan muka awak?"
Lepastu, rasa nak kurung diri dalam bilik to the point yang nak hold semester ah
sebab malu nak jumpa kawan-kawan.
Pastu rasa tak nak dating dengan pakwe sebab malu lah woi.
Tapi dating jugek walaupun jerawat bermaharajalela, so #overlyattachsyafika blergh.
Ada kata, sebab aku balik dari spain, so cuaca punya transition,
ada kata sebab hormon. Well, horms, why now? Why u do this to me now? why?
Entahlah.
So, for someone yang tak de skin problem sangat, make up was a big no no for me.
Tapi aku tak de masalah pun dengan orang yang pakai make up
Sendiri punya hal lah. Macam orang yang cucuk vitamin C untuk putih, atau bla bla.
Aku tak buat tapi aku takdelah sampai nak ejek orang yang buat
Tu masalah kau, yang rosak nanti badan sendiri.
Straight to the point, lepas muka berjerawat dan scar yang sangat teruk ni
I decided to put some make up on sebab self-esteem jatuh terjelepuk ah bila
orang cakap dengan kau tapi dia dok perati jerawat kat dahi kau
Aku pun try ah cover the shitz dengan bedak and what not just dekat problematic area je
Untuk menyembunyikan ia. But hey, it helps.
Although tak ah hilang, tapi dia dapatlah memalsukan muka buat sementara waktu
dan meningkatkan sikit self-esteem diri
dan mengelakkan kau orang memandang jerawat aku waktu aku bercakap dengan korang
sehingga perasaan di hati macam nak smack down je dahi korang tu
tapi yeah, it helps.
Bukan lah aku kata " sila lah make up kan diri anda dengan tebal untuk naik kan self-esteem"
No.
Semua orang cantik dengan sendirinya, even with or without make up
But hey, a lil make up just to boost ur confidence level wont hurt, no?
Sama macam kau yang dah pakai deodorant, tapi still nak sembur perfume sebotol kan?
Kau nak extra kick supaya confidence level kau naik. Centu ah.
Kesimpulan yang seorang syafika nak buat dari cakap panjang panjang ini adalah,
Buat lah apa pun asalkan korang happy.
Be it with or without make up, asalkan korang jadi diri sendiri tu yang penting, okay?
Jerawat-puff girl,
Syafika L.
Thursday, 1 October 2015
1 / 31
Bismillah
so today, my day went well. Alhamdulillah.
one thing that make me sad today was artikel quality management kena reject.
sedih okay sebab dah halfway through tetiba lecturer kata she have to rejected it
sebab tak banyak quality problem dalam artikel tu
orang lain semua dah halfway through, while i myself need to start over.
BUT
three things that makes me happy today was
1. i found new article for quality management. problem solved cuma kena cepat sikit
lah sebab org lain semua dah halfway there. Tak pe you can do this syafika! 💪
2. makan sedap niari dengan some of ze classmates yang baik teman seorang syafika
mengidam nak beli tudung people dekat bangi gateaway. so a plus ah, makan sedap
dan dapat tudung. yay!
3. milaff being so sweet today :)
Alhamdulillah.
bila tulis ni rasa , wow banyak juga small things that make me happy today
lantas seorang syafika senyum sorang-sorang 😅
Hugs,
Syafika L.
so today, my day went well. Alhamdulillah.
one thing that make me sad today was artikel quality management kena reject.
sedih okay sebab dah halfway through tetiba lecturer kata she have to rejected it
sebab tak banyak quality problem dalam artikel tu
orang lain semua dah halfway through, while i myself need to start over.
BUT
three things that makes me happy today was
1. i found new article for quality management. problem solved cuma kena cepat sikit
lah sebab org lain semua dah halfway there. Tak pe you can do this syafika! 💪
2. makan sedap niari dengan some of ze classmates yang baik teman seorang syafika
mengidam nak beli tudung people dekat bangi gateaway. so a plus ah, makan sedap
dan dapat tudung. yay!
3. milaff being so sweet today :)
Alhamdulillah.
bila tulis ni rasa , wow banyak juga small things that make me happy today
lantas seorang syafika senyum sorang-sorang 😅
Hugs,
Syafika L.
Wednesday, 30 September 2015
October babies,
Bismillah.
Starting from october, i'm gonna try something new.
I will try to post things in ze blog much often,
even when i dont have anything to say.
Maybe some videos ke, kan
Why?
Because i want to try something new.
Everyday, i will try to list three thing that makes me happy.
By doing this, i will be more positive, inshaAllah
Yea lah, seeing more blessings that God gives me
rather than focusing on the negative one
Still ah, tak syafika lah kalau tak merungut.
Thus, i will list only one thing that really make me unhappy.
Bagi can lah, okay? haha
Because it's october, and most people know how i hate
october, but there's a few things that i'm looking forward to this month.
I hope october will be nice to me this year. Aamin.
Hugs and kisses.
Syafika L.
Starting from october, i'm gonna try something new.
I will try to post things in ze blog much often,
even when i dont have anything to say.
Maybe some videos ke, kan
Why?
Because i want to try something new.
Everyday, i will try to list three thing that makes me happy.
By doing this, i will be more positive, inshaAllah
Yea lah, seeing more blessings that God gives me
rather than focusing on the negative one
Still ah, tak syafika lah kalau tak merungut.
Thus, i will list only one thing that really make me unhappy.
Bagi can lah, okay? haha
Because it's october, and most people know how i hate
october, but there's a few things that i'm looking forward to this month.
I hope october will be nice to me this year. Aamin.
Hugs and kisses.
Syafika L.
Tuesday, 29 September 2015
What you really do for a living?
Bismillah.
Tajuk takde kena mengena but yeah i feel like writing.
Although writing pun macam tak membantu apa apa
and there will be more people judging, including you.
it was hard to have someone for almost two years and out of the blue
he decided to ends it
but i'm happy for him, at least he's not as mess up as i am
but i learn a lot of things when i am single
even orang semua pun cakap about me being single (uncle , aunties bla bla)
I mean, yeah, because it's a trend now to get married young
Thus, i'm gonne be 26, in less then a month but still a mess
Yes, i have a sister that is currently 27 who doesnt seems to face
my problem because she's currently dating someone
So orang tak ah cakap sangat
i have been single for a year and a half
i date myself, not putting myself out there seems like a good idea,
i dont want to take any chances
But then, i sorta fall for someone who i didnt even imagine ah yang
dalam banyak banyak orang, i would fall for him
Amazing time i must say, it makes me feel special again
Always have something to look forward to
and someone to turn to incase i'm having a bad day or anything
But yeah, its true what they say,
not everyone's gonna be living happily ever after
So here I am, trying to figure me out again
By writing although people will judge me for this
But i guess i'm a writer, i write
i cant run from it
I'm just an emotional jigsaw at the moment but i'm gonna piece myself up back together.
But don't be sad about me,
i am proud of myself, at least i took a chance
although it doesnt work out the way i thought it would be
Beautiful things will happen some day,
Syafika L.
Tajuk takde kena mengena but yeah i feel like writing.
Although writing pun macam tak membantu apa apa
and there will be more people judging, including you.
it was hard to have someone for almost two years and out of the blue
he decided to ends it
but i'm happy for him, at least he's not as mess up as i am
but i learn a lot of things when i am single
even orang semua pun cakap about me being single (uncle , aunties bla bla)
I mean, yeah, because it's a trend now to get married young
Thus, i'm gonne be 26, in less then a month but still a mess
Yes, i have a sister that is currently 27 who doesnt seems to face
my problem because she's currently dating someone
So orang tak ah cakap sangat
i have been single for a year and a half
i date myself, not putting myself out there seems like a good idea,
i dont want to take any chances
But then, i sorta fall for someone who i didnt even imagine ah yang
dalam banyak banyak orang, i would fall for him
Amazing time i must say, it makes me feel special again
Always have something to look forward to
and someone to turn to incase i'm having a bad day or anything
But yeah, its true what they say,
not everyone's gonna be living happily ever after
So here I am, trying to figure me out again
By writing although people will judge me for this
But i guess i'm a writer, i write
i cant run from it
I'm just an emotional jigsaw at the moment but i'm gonna piece myself up back together.
But don't be sad about me,
i am proud of myself, at least i took a chance
although it doesnt work out the way i thought it would be
Beautiful things will happen some day,
Syafika L.
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