Bismillah.. 

It's been awhile, but you know what... I'M MARRIEDDD!!!!!

Banyak benda jadi while I plan the wedding. 

Will get into details on my next post... if I have time lah. 

But as for now, 

I just want to share with you guys that I am officially someone's wife.

A Mrs. for God Sake!! OMG!

Surreal, everything is just surreal. 

Till then, 

MRS. FL (SL saja gediks 👯) 

 TR's HQ 6th April 20172.15pm

Patah.

Bismillah.


You know, the struggle of being in love is hard.

and the struggle when you broke up is even harder.


Kau rasa kau ada needs to prove to everyone yang you're the good person in the relationship,
it's not you who makes this mess all over again, dan kau rasa takut gila sebab kau rasa semua orang
perhati kau dan label kau, lagi-lagi bila you're somebody.

Aku kena harungi benda tu juga.

Waktu aku broke up dulu, aku rasa aku ada needs to let everyone knows that it's not my fault alone.
That guy makes mistakes too. I mean, ,come on, who doesnt, right?

Dan setelah aku berusaha utk clarify kat semua orang, aku jadi letih. Sama macam letihnya aku lari
setiap kali aku putus cinta dulu. Dia mcm lari yang takde penghujung dan buat kau rasa kalau kau stay kat satu tempat kau tak safe anymore.

So aku stop jadi this psycho girl, yang rasa the needs to clarify to everyone apa aku buat for the relationship etc. Aku stop. Dan aku pilih untuk diam.


And as time goes by, aku masih rasa sakit bila aku dengar orang cakap aku lah yang jahat tu, aku lah
yang buat relationship tu tak jadi.


But you know what, this time around aku tak nak clarify, and aku bukan tulis blog ni sebab aku nak beritahu semua apa jadi, tapi aku jak beritahu pada semua yang mengalami masalah macam aku ;

" Silence is gold "

Let them talk. You just do your job and prove that you worth more than what they think you are.


Enjoy life. Travel more. And be happy.


Mana tahu jodoh korang yang betul ada dekat tepi?


Catat lagi nanti,
SL

Hello beautiful.

Assalamualaikum.



Aku ni bukan seorang yang stabil, in any ways. especially dari segi emosi.

So I feel like writing today, just because.



Do you ever feel like there's a day yang kau rasa you really want your old life back? Pernah tak rasa macam tu?

I do.

And today i decided to go down the memory lane.

It was hard, looking at some pictures, reminiscing the feelings knowing that everything is different now. It was hard.

I am trying as hard as I can to just move on and be as normal as I can be, but everything seems to fall apart. I am lost.



I hope i found myself again.


Love,
S.

#roadtokahwin part 1

Bismillah.

I know i know... it's been a while.
Life took over so yeah, no blogging time for me (yay!)

well, a lot had happened since the last time i blogged.

And tetiba ke dah #roadtokahwin.
Well, lama lagi sebenarnya but i juts feel like writing my feelings
and experienced down in this blog so bebila emosi boleh reminiscing balik (kahkahkah!)

No, i am not getting married dalam masa terdekat ni
But yes, getting married for sure. Doa-doakanlah dipermudahkan okay?

Today, baru settle kursus pra-perkahwinan.
Took us almost 13hours listening to the talk and attending the seminar
And alhamdulillah, we survived.

It was a fun-but-depends situation lah sebab ada penceramah yang best,
ada yang macam boring sikit, but still okay lah.
Banyak juga input dapat, and some inside jokes we made along the way.

Ada juga rasa macam " eh betul ke apa aku buat ni? "
But then again, i feel like this is the right thing to do.

Macam ustaz tu kata tadi, tanya diri kita, apa niat kita nak kahwin.


So..... apa niat kita nak kahwin?

Catat lagi nanti,
Syafika L.

10 years.

bismillah.


It's been awhile. I have so many things to blog about
But i dont have enough time
Well, maybe i do.. But too lazy lah kot. Heh.

Anyhow, its been 10 years now.
The first time i talked to F, it was 2006.

It was all about who i dated, relationship advices
Which i dont even know why i asked him in the first place
Since dia punya love life pun takde lah awesome mana (at that time lah, sekarang u date me, so that makes your love life much awesomer  hehe )
BUT..... After tons of losing and finding each other again and again
We're officially dating... After 9 effing years.

And only God knows what's next for us.

Pray for the best, inshaAllah.

I can't believe i dated you, F.
I can't believe i took 9 years to realize that
I should ngorat you
But oh well, at least you dont have to
Date the miserable me ( or maybe i am, still)
And i'm wiser now (oh you wish :p )

But i love you. With all my heart. Semoga tuhan setuju.

Doa doa kan lah.
Syafika L.

Sad

Bismillah.


And that moment, when u started to switch off your phone
When we fight

That was the time that i knew
That this won't last
You will start running away
Everytime we fight

And everytime,
I will fall asleep crying
Trying to find ways to contact u
Without knowing how worried i am
That ure going to leave me
And everything won't be the same when i wake up

That moment i realize
Ive lost you
You will never be the same

You will never be that F again
The one who stays and not running away
And told me tHat " we're going through this together "

You're not mine anymore.

May life treats you good.
syafika L.

This,

Bismillah.

I have sooo many happy thing that i want to blog about but
I think i need to let this out first.

So, prepare yourself for a tantrum kindda post.
Because i'm about to drop one now.

MY BESTEST FRIEND IS GETTING ENGAGE!

i am happy, like sooo happy and mad at the same time.
Macam sorang lelaki tengah rampas kawan baik i dari i.
Which is annoying i know, and i should not feel that way
But hey, i am happy. Like seriously.

The thing is that,
we grew up too fast.
Last time, we were talking about how to get on a train and go to midvalley
To buy some instrument shit,
The next thing was me moving out from our flat, dropping out of music school,
Me getting into business school, figuring out my life by writing some music shit,
And her showcases, practicals, thesis, and alll of the cool shit
That we went through together.
GAHHHH. so many thing, and now, this engagement thingy.


I felt so left out.
I'm afraid that things wont be the same anymore.
Well i hope not.
But yeah, i feel so empty.
i was crying until i cant even cry anymore.
I am happy but this scares the shit out of me.

Things just wont be the same anymore.
And this feeling, it kills me.

Good night, world.
Syafika L.