October babies,

Bismillah.

Starting from october, i'm gonna try something new.
I will try to post things in ze blog much often,
even when i dont have anything to say.
Maybe some videos ke, kan

Why?
Because i want to try something new.

Everyday, i will try to list three thing that makes me happy.

By doing this, i will be more positive, inshaAllah
Yea lah, seeing more blessings that God gives me
rather than focusing on the negative one

Still ah, tak syafika lah kalau tak merungut.
Thus, i will list only one thing that really make me unhappy.
Bagi can lah, okay? haha

Because it's october, and most people know how i hate
october, but there's a few things that i'm looking forward to this month.

I hope october will be nice to me this year. Aamin.

Hugs and kisses.
Syafika L.

What you really do for a living?

Bismillah.

Tajuk takde kena mengena but yeah i feel like writing.
Although writing pun macam tak membantu apa apa
and there will be more people judging, including you.


it was hard to have someone for almost two years and out of the blue
he decided to ends it
but i'm happy for him, at least he's not as mess up as i am
but i learn a lot of things when i am single
even orang semua pun cakap about me being single (uncle , aunties bla bla)
I mean, yeah, because it's a trend now to get married young
Thus, i'm gonne be 26, in less then a month but still a mess

Yes, i have a sister that is currently 27 who doesnt seems to face
my problem because she's currently dating someone
So orang tak ah cakap sangat

i have been single for a year and a half
i date myself, not putting myself out there seems like a good idea,
i dont want to take any chances
But then, i sorta fall for someone who i didnt even imagine ah yang
dalam banyak banyak orang, i would fall for him
Amazing time i must say, it makes me feel special again
Always have something to look forward to
and someone to turn to incase i'm having a bad day or anything

But yeah, its true what they say,
not everyone's gonna be living happily ever after

So here I am, trying to figure me out again
By writing although people will judge me for this
But i guess i'm a writer,  i write
i cant run from it

I'm just an emotional jigsaw at the moment but i'm gonna piece myself up back together.
But don't be sad about me,
i am proud of myself, at least i took a chance
although it doesnt work out the way i thought it would be



Beautiful things will happen some day,
Syafika L.

i kindda miss this guy

Bismillah.

past few days, my life is like a wrecking ship.
i get mad, i am so sensetive about everything
i think too hard and i get so emotional

but the truth is,
i kindda miss my guy.

i know, i can just text him and tell him this
and he's going to hate me for writing this
but i'll write it anyway.

i miss
the guy who used to care about me
the guy who will always ask me " u sayang i tak, s? "
and everytime i asked him, he will say " sayang, sangat "
the things that he did was so random
and i love every seconds of it

i miss
the guy who listened to my insecurities
and promise me that he will try his best
until i've lost my insecurities
the guy who will always smile
when he saw me entering his car
the guy who will always complained about my perfume
but actually likes it

i miss
the guy who texted me random things or links
from facebook to youtube
because he's thinking about me
the guy who will always fight with me
about food that we ate for lunch or dinner
or who gets the best dessert.

i miss
the guy who wish me good morning
and good night
with a small hint like " mimpi i "
maybe to let me know that he miss me
i miss the guy who doesnt mind me saying
i miss him so many time through out the day
although i know that my clingyness can be annoying sometimes

i miss
his stupid jokes
his hambarness
his coolness
his sweetness with a slight ego
his patience
his laugh
his smiles
our small late night talks
our short drive away
our midnight movies
our horrible dinner that sometimes i choose

i miss that guy
i miss him a lot

i miss you.

Syafika L.

now tell me what's good?

to leave or to fight for this?

Syafika L.

#syafikatakesoverespana 1

Bismillah.

Jadi, kali ni, aku nak share cerita #syafikajalanjalan ke Espana *insert emoji girl dancing in red dress here* 

K. 

Aaaaanyhow, thank you to @ikat_team , @saudagaronline786 dan www.facebook.com/ikatmy kerana baik hati menaja sebiji gopro4 silver dan segala jenis mak nenek poll yang ada dalam dunia ni, tapi sebab nak travel, i choose to bring three way poll yang mana dia boleh masuk je dalam beg sebab boleh lipat tiga dan menjadi sangat kecil. Dia juga berfungsi sebagai monopod dan boleh bertukar menjadi tripod. How awesome is that? So silalah jenguk instagram diorang atau facebook page untuk maklumat lanjut. Sekian, iklan. 

Jadi, ni merupakan solo trip aku yang pertama. Tanpa mama dan keluarga *kesat air mata* Traumatized okay memula sebab almost two weeks juga di sana. But yeah, i survived. Alhamdulillah. 

So, i depart from KUL at 8pm naik Etihad Airways dan terus menuju ke Abu Dhabi. Perjalanan dalam 6jam 45 minit, maka tidurlah seorang syafika didalam plane tu sebab boring k flight lama-lama ni. Blergh. 

Sampai je dekat Abu Dhabi, ada wifi, so selamatlah kalian melepak di airport tu sebab aku kena transit lebih kurang 2 hours. But, airport dia banyak benda, surau bersih (tapi jangan lah tidur dalam surau,kesian orang nak sembahyang) dan toilet ada dalam surau tu senang korang nak kehulu kehilir melepaskan niat yang tertangguh. Heh. 

Lepastu, flight seterusnya adalah Abu Dhabi ke Dusseldorf, Germany. Naik Etihad jugak selama 7jam 5 minit. Kenapa berhenti kat situ? Entah lah. Tiket ni paling murah kot waktu tu dan bukan aku yang beli so bertabahlah seorang syafika. Hahaha Sampai je kat DUS, terus naik AirBerlin ke madrid. Airberlin ni lebih kurang macam Airasia, so faham-faham lah ye? Transit tak lama so macam tak sempat nak melilau dalam tu, but orang orang yang jaga keselamatan, imigresyen dia kebanyakan nya sangat ramah! :) 

Dusseldorf ke Madrid ambil masa lebih kurang 2jam 30 minit. So, sampai je kat airport, korang keluar je, takde lalu imigresyen dah sebab cop dah dapat waktu kat DUS lagi. 

Oh, sesiapa yang berminat nak beli simcard dia, belilah Lebaran punya sim. 10 Euro if i'm not mistaken with 2GB internet lepas korang subscribe data diorang lah. 2GB dia pun macam lama gila nak habis so, itu je dah memadai rasanya. #TIPS Pastikan ada internet so senang nak guna untuk waze, google maps dan yang sepatutnya je. Sampai hostel, pakai wifi yang disediakan okay? Yang nak roaming, pun boleh. Asalkan korang dah aktifkan dan pilih signal yang sync dengan korang punya line okay?

Lepastu, berjalan lah syafika menaiki metro train ke Apartmentos Good Stay Madrid. Apartment ni oklah,selesa. Ada kitchen, as in full kitchen siap microwave, peti sejuk apa semua. Satu apartment boleh muat 5 orang. Selesa! Toilet di dalam bilik. So, terjagalah privasi seorang muslimah. Hahaha Poyo gila. K. 

Apartment ni best sebab dekat dengan mini market, and makanan halal, and banyak lagi attractions dekat Madrid yang within walking distances (10-20mins of walking) . So, since i love walking so much, so i dont mind. Tapi pada korang yang nak naik metro, the nearest should be at Santa Domingo. So dari situ, korang boleh pergi ke mana sahaja korang nak. Tiket 1.6 Euro satu hala, kemana sahaja within the section lah. Kalau nak ke section 2, maybe mahal sikit. #TIPS Nak mudah tahu kat mana nak kena tukar lane metro, download metro station punya apps kat istore okay? :) 

Banyaknyaaaa nak tulis. Okay. 

DAY 1

So depart on 25th, sampai 26th of August at 1150am masa Madrid. Diorang lambat 6jam dari Malaysia. So, lepas dah check in, makan apa semua, refresh, keluarlah syafika berjalan jalan mencari tempat tempat best di Madrid. 

Puerto Del Sol

You can google about the place and apa information yang buat dia one of the must-go-place in Madrid. Dia macam bangunan je sebenarnya, bangunan lama tapi cantik. Banyak muda-mudi yang melepak kat situ dan banyak shopping place yang menarik macam Zara, Pull and Bear, Bershka dan sebagainya. Pada yang nak berjimat, sila kuatkan iman anda sepanjang berjalan menuju ke Puerto Del Sol, rasa tak kuat, sila pasang earphone dan dengar azan di telinga so korang ingat ini semua hanyalah dunia sementara. hahaha ok. Ada jugak orang buat tarian Flamenco tepi jalan. Yes, free je, macam street performance, kalau rasa nak derma duit, bagilah 1 Euro kat diorang, takde hal punya. oh time aku pergi 1 Euro = RM 4.9++ Thanks. 1 Malaysia! K. 

Museo Nasional del Prado 

Okay, muzium ni sebenarnya sesaja je lalu, and terlanjur time lalu tu memang dia bagi tiket free. So, seorang syafika gigih pun ambil tiket dan masuk ke dalam muzium tu. #TIPS pergilah time 6pm-8pm, time ni dia memang free entrance, ambil tiket je lepastu masuk. Pada yang minat art, masuklah sebab muzium ni besar dan ada arca lah lukisan lah dan memacam lagi. I went to the first room je dekat first floor selebihnya tak pergi sebab masa untuk free session nak habis kot masa tu, tak ingat lah. Muzium ni banyak lukisan pasal agama kristian, so, masuk je lah usya dengan niat nak tengok seni, okay? :) Oh, kalau pergi time berbayar kena 25 Euro so silalah darab dengan 5 dan fikir lah sendiri berbaloi tak masuk sekiranya berbayar. Hahahaha

Kat muzium ni banyak bangunan cecantik tapi kebanyakannya ada Cathedral. So, masuklah kalau nak. Oh ada few lagi muzium yang berdekatan dan ada juga bagi free entrance, so sesiapa yang berminat, mohonlah google okay? :)

Stairs ni jalan nak menuju ke Retiro Park dan waktu tu matahari macam cantiknya, so syafika kekonon nak artsy smartsy pun saja je nak tangkap gambar. Cantik kan? Obviously the sunset, not me. Durh. 

Retiro Park

Next, perjalanan diteruskan re Retiro Park. Cantik park ni dan sangat besar. Banyak orang jogging, bawa haiwan peliharaan jalan, dan piknik dekat sini. Open space, no entrance fees, banyak street performance juga kalau korang jalan kedalam dalam nya. 

Puerta de Alcala 

Waktu cari metro station nak balik, tak sengaja terlalu tempat ni. Cantik juga waktu malam , tapi kalau korang ada kesempatan nak jalan sini waktu siang, silalah okay? One of the must-visit place juga di Madrid ni :) 

Habislah day 1 #syafikajalanjalan di Madrid. Sebab dah panjang sangat ni, maka sambung day 2 dan seterusnya esoklah. Heh. 

Nak tengok gambar atau mini updates about my spain trip ni, pergilah kat insta dan cari #syafikatakesoverespana #syafikajalanjalan . Okay?

Hope this helps! 

Syafika L. 

4

Bismillah

The end of my spain trip and it was a blast.
Reached home, went for a wedding and a date.
Everything went perfectly blur ( because i was jet lagged )
But Alhamdulillah, i am so happy to see one of the person that i miss dearly.



To end the day, i have so many question about life while eating this chic strawberry ice cream,

1. Kenapa semua yang aku teka, betul?
2. Should i feel scared? Worried?
3. Why does people come and go so easily?
4. Why don't they appreciate things while it still there?
5. Why do people take things for granted?

I am so scared but i know, whatever i feel right now won't change my fate or whatever that God have written for me. I just need to have faith.

But, watching people leave, makes me scared that he would leave too.

What if his heart change all of the sudden?
What if he want his old crush back?
i didn't know him better than she does, so, why should he stay with me, kan?
I have soo many flaws, while she's so perfect from his eyes, so why should he choose me?

whatever that i do now, is it enough for him?
i am so scared, what if i get hurt again?
and that isn't easy to be cure.


should i stay, or give up?

Yours truly,
Syafika L.

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Kehadapan my awesomely hambar F. 

i hope i have wifi there, and my roaming works so that i can still wish u good night or at least tell u that i miss u. Or better, i can skype u at least before i go to bed. #overlyattachedgfalert 

erghh kan best if we can travel together. or i can just pack you inside my luggage. that way, i dont have to miss you like i do, currently. k that sounds so wrong and creepy. Hahahaa

k, my point is, if i dont have any internet connection, i hope by the time u read this, u'll smile knowing that i am missing you, a lot. a lot more than the water in that indian ocean. k drama. 

anyhow, i dont know if things will change after this, like after i balik turkiye haritu but i hope it doesnt. i hope we stay this way, or be better for our own happiness. please dont turn out to be that cold rejecting F that's so annoying, i rasa nak sepak je. haha  

i wanna say those cheesy words like please stay this way yadda yadda yadda. i like your hambarness and your sweetness all in one, but to me and me alone. thanks. haha but, if you ever feel you're in that complicated zone again, please come and talk to me okay? 

one of my happiness is you (other than my family, of course) so, please know that i miss you and i pray that God will take great care of you like He always do. And i hope you'll miss me too. 

i miss you,  kekasih. 

i'll see u in two weeks okay? 

*virtual hugs* 

Love, 

Your S.