10.21pm

Bismillah.

This might be the last post from me.
I might delete all my social media account after this.
Well, i deleted my FB and twitter.
All i have is you, and my instagram.

i know this is drastic.
But i feel so stupid!

I am hopeless.
I usually be there for someone who doesn't even want to
do the same for me.

I am just stupid.
I noticed everything but i let myself to be in this pain.

You gave so much to a person that you love
and to make sure that he knows everything's going to be okay

But, you know that
he won't do the same for you
because his heart isn't for you

Why do you make yourself like this, Syafika?
You know you won't get him
You know that it's not gonna end with a happy ending
But yet, you still want to stay


Why do you want to waste your time and energy
for someone that you know
won't even wipe your tears and be there for you when you need him?

Why?
Syafika L.